i brought it all upon myself
all i can do is to blame it on myself

i think sometimes i'm quite selfish somehow
taking things for granted and all
explaining that i was quite spoiled in some ways

no matter what
i hope we'll overcome these tough periods

Lunch today at funan with my parents and bro. After that i walked over to O School. At first i actually walked towards the wrong direction. Luckily i saw the white bridge, i knew i walked the wrong way, then i quickly headed to the city hall direction. At least i remember somehow =p

On the way to O School met Ian and he ask me wat course/class i join and i said House. Thereafter, he gave a hard Hi-5. Is he not happy with me for not joining locking II??..hehe..i hope not =)

Anyway, En can't make it for House today cause she gonna attend a wedding ceremony. There's two new steps we learn, i duno what iszit called but i called it the hopping & the cross leg jump..hehe..its super tiring. I felt like i'm gonna faint anytime soon. Daniel say next lesson will be learning some routines le..hehe..4 more lessons to go!

Got home and went over to sing-post NTUC means i can grab something for my coming week "pack-to-school" programme which i started after i bought my lappy..hehe.. ^^

The review for IP ytd was like..hmm..nothing to say. I think we are being expected to do more than we should. XMI is like not going anywhere yet..haiz..and i'm somehow stuck in my P6.

THINK! THINK! THINK!

DNO people are rushing like mad now i suppose, submission on tuesday. Kambatte :)

Did quite abit of stuff ytd & today, but not tt much as i expected myself to do. Widen up my mind alot, which uses up alot of my energy to think alot, making me feel drained out at e end of the day. So, i can't help falling aslp on my sofa almost everyday =p

Lunch today was great with sponsors from lifen & brendan, each 50 cents for me to buy an apple pie & mei ling to up-size her meal and share with me e fries. I'm happy & contented. It's great to have friends like them. Thanks :)

FDA & FL!P briefing, which means we got additional work to do. Maybe some of my ideas for 'home in contrast' can be submitted for e compeition, let's see how it goes.

Mid-Crit on 10 July. Deadline 9 July. Left 13 days.
This friday gonna show concepts for e IP and next wed XMI but my partner for XMI alwayz MIA -.-

Kambatte everyone! Especially DNO people =)

Youtubing in school is really a stupid thing to do, but still can't stop it. The loading just take super long. Our cohort seems to have alot ppl who dance, who wants to dance, who likes to dance etc. It's fun and interesting to learn about this. Just now Khairul was surprised that i dance, cause i never tell him and don't know who go tell him. He thought tt i was those play volin type, anyway i learn cello & flute. He just can't stop asking cause he can't believe i dance..haha..cause i'm like those jelly type, thus he say i know liquid dance. He with his funny frowning/question-mark look..hehe.. Scott just stand there and laugh at whatever Khairul say.

Conclusion - nobody can beat Pang for his "never-stop dancing" every seconds, every minutes, every hour. Dale is good at his gliding & tummy wave. Minou with his technonik. Sihui with her "head-spins". YuDe with his "bouncing".

I had a great laugh. ^^

Sunday
Lunch at PP with aunt & couz - Teppanyaki, it's been awhile since we ate tt. After that my dad came n fetch me n rina to Aloha Loyang. Couz Cheryl is celebrating her 21st birthday there. Her actually birthday is on 30th june but everywhere is like booked. There's buffet & fondue!! nice!! Cheryl say she rented it from a website..hehe..
Some of us went cycling, some played soccer etc. Marrissa and i was chatting about our childhood days where we would go to ECP or pasir ris park for cycling maybe once a week or so. We really miss those days! As a group, candice, eunice, marrissa, rina, eden & me cycled together and we went to a plaground. We played catching..haha..i rmb alot of those playground games like octopus, ice & water etc etc, just so fun. 1 hour of cycling ended and it's time for cut cake time.

My 6th aunt was telling me that if we see people who looks like Cheryl then we know that it's her team-mates (dragon-boaters). It's true!! Adriell kor was describing the similiarity..hehe..anyway her theme for her birthday is shirt & shorts..haha..thats what she's comfortable with =) She had her speech after birthday song & a super long photograph session, too much grp alrdy..hehe..The cake is nice, i like the crunchy part ^^

Above are a few pics taken by me, haven't got the photos from Cheryl will upload them once i get them =)
Next 21st should be Candice's turn le which also not celebrating on the actual day..haha..

Monday
I break my lunch into two slot today, pear at 11am and apple at 3pm. I can do it! I think i'll be able to save faster than estimated. Maybe from 100 over weeks to about 70 weeks at most bah, but then i still feel that it's too long. Probably i sim to save half of what i spend jiu ok le bah?? that can cover up all my printing fees.

It's week 4 now le!! Week 6 having mid-crit le!! so fast!! My supervisor is also rushing me for more ideas!! Kambatte!!! I haven't touch XMI & IP!! I think i'll touch abit tml also and i need to go library to look at some kitchen stuff!!

Anyway, my blog is to remind me of what i did and what i'm suppose to do, so ya =)

i'm lost*

Happy Birthday Mummy!!
the lucky number today is 50

House was tiring, but i think my body is getting more used to it alrdy. More Practice!! I think i'm quite clumsy and my brain needs more than 30 mins to digest things.

After that walk all the way to Funan to meet my parents & siblings, collected the small Fujitsu. Later on went over to PP for swensen. I serious think that its standard has drop, being their regular customer since very young, there ain't much interesting things to attract us anymore. Also, the service, food quality & etc etc seems to drop. I think they should improve on its menu =) Now, there's so many other competitors, trying out more attractive menus. But then, everybody knows swensen as it's been here since ages, thus, whenever we want to list out places to dine in,swensen somehow will come into the list. However, it may alrdy be out of the list quick.

Anyway, let me blog about a fruitful friday.
As usual, morning in school somehow it's a waste because we can't really meet supervisor until after lunch. They are either out for teabreak at 10 or having meeting at 11 and lunch at 12, then break at 2 again? In actual fact, we can really find them after 3pm and we go off at 5pm, thus sometimes we only get to meet them at 4.45pm and drag all the way to 7pm sometimes. That explains the empty studio everytime until after lunch.
In conclusion, friday we did nothing and we gotta get ready for our NE excursion to the National Museum. Before that the guys were talking about strength and all i think and the wrestling started. Nobody can win Eason, just see the below picture. Ernest is struggling to win, Eason on the other hand happily talking to Jarett without any difficulty. I played too just to test the strength of them and LiFen actually has more strength than Ernest (he really cannot make it) =p

Down to Blk R carpark waiting for the bus with our two cute lecturers who are bringing us there.

Cute Sophia with the helmet

The start of our learning journey of Singapore History and we were given the super big "IPOD" to aid in the hearing and all. It's quite cool but abit the redundant and there's just too much info to take which makes us restless after awhile.

We are so free to ride bicycle last time, but now we are so restricted, that explain the increasing cars and bike you can see on the road. Riding bicycle is one of my favourites when i'm younger =) Though this display ain't explaining this, i just miss the cycling days.

They are just too stress, DNO is getting nearer.

I like this

i miss my childhood days*

One of the lies that we tell ourselves is that we're making progress
But Huey's chair's empty.

Bread for lunch today and it's slack around day somehow. All lecturers like MIA lor, want to see them also difficult. When not prepared to see them, they'll appear.

I think i've been eating too much sweets recently as sihui brought a whole big container of candies. I think thats why i've got so much mosquito bites..hehe..

Something fun to do today is to have ern's and pang's itunes library in my desktop. I can hear their songs but i can't take them, i think it's good enough because my desktop don have any songs. I can listen to them plus crazy ern got like 3000 over songs!!

Sometimes studio can be fun, sometimes it can be busy and sometimes it's just plain boring!

Anyway, i think my saving plan went quite well for this first week til now. I think i won't slim down but grow fatter cause i'm eating bread! It's fattening..hehe.. hope some weeks i can save more to shorten this tough period. I CAN DO IT =)

sometimes i just can't stop thinking about the past. the friends that were once close but stray away. the fun days that we once had all are just memories that may just fade away anytime. maybe nobody cares or remembers what i remembered. at least i know myself, i treasured everything. thats why i'm missing them.

It's a WONDER post

sometimes you just can't stop thinking & wondering

On the way to school today met peixin, did some catch up and i can't help but bring up the topic of BK. Just wondering if she knows about it and actually i'm still doubting that he's not with us anymore. Also, today in class jarett ask about where we would be when we die - i was wondering where he is now, hows the life out there like? For me, i think i'll be scared, cause i don't know who i'll meet etc and all. When you start to think of all this, you just can't stop wondering. And i'm wondering where's my grandma now after like 6 yrs since she passed away.

Presentation on e XMI speakers today, one word to say - unprepared. After that had lunch at koufu - thks to sihui & fiona for sponsoring me 50 cents each to get a full meal as i planned to only spend $1. =)

Back to studio is like gossiping time. Quite abit to talk about - people. A phrase to describe what i gathered - don't judge a book by it's cover. I think it can link to many topics that we talk about somehow.

Anyway, was back home quite early, like about 5 and i fell aslp on my sofa from duno what time til about 9pm. I think should be about 6 plus, 7 cause i rmb my dad asking me if i wanted to eat maggie mee and i said i don't want..hehe. I had my dinner at about 9 plus, bee hoon which my elder sis bought.

I feel that today is quite a dreadful day.

*the doors we open & close each day decide the lives we live.

School ytd passed by quite quickly as i was busy operating my new lappy. Installed Rhino, waiting to install CS3. But i problem i faced with the new lappy is the card reader that can't read my SD card. Other than that, there ain't any problems le bah..hope so..hehe.. Anyway, i'll bring it to the service centre today as i'll bringing my old lappy for service. Received the reply that its expiry date is 14 May 2009 =)


I brought bread to school for lunch means i din spend any on food ytd, so i saved 50 cents. And i bring honey star for lunch today, so i can save another 50cents again. However, i'm gonna do printings which can cost me quite alot >.<

Let's see at the end of the week i can save how much bah..hehe..

Attended xuehui's hiphop 1 and dumb dumb me keep thinking of topping up $12, then i brought $12 when i'm suppose to have a min. of $20 top up. Nevermind, i'm gonna bank in the $20 back =p Lesson was quite fun and the routine was actually a part of the TBG concert and choreo by xuehui. The song by Maria Carey "My Great" if i never heard wrongly.

i think my blog is getting so wordy and i'm gonna post a super long info about me =p

Sensitive Doer (SD)
Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.

Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.

Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, sensitive, peace-loving, reserved, gentle, good-natured, independent, empathetic, friendly, playful, carefree, sympathetic, relaxed, quiet, modest, pleasure-loving, loyal, obliging, caring, helpful, optimistic

These subjects could interest you
art, music, craftwork, garden work, animals, nature, literature, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, handicrafts, writing

Sometimes, you just felt so helpless, don't know what to do.

A bad news to share,
someone jumped off from somewhere near my house.
blk 36, beside 7-11
right infront of e medical shop.
This afternoon i was still standing around that area.
Few hours later, the bad news came and many was there to see.
I've got goose-bumps while walking over to the bus stop.
The body is still there but had been covered up.
It's been said that the woman had depression.
better stop the descriptions, just wanna remind myself not to walk that area.
i'm just scared.
Actually the other route that i'm walking to another bus-stop,
had these kinda of incident too.
There's just no other way for me to walk le!!
It's not good to know so much.

Anyway, it's Fathers' Day! We had dinner at rina's house and had a simple mahjong session. No money is involved, but it's still fun - training (: It's the second home i visited..hehe..more to go..where can i go? 2 places i thought of, just see how it goes. I think i shall see supervisor tml if i did go the right direction in my research.

PERSEVERANCE!!
:)

SATISFIED (:

sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.

E8410 Lifebook should be the one i gonna buy.

Going down to PC show tml morning with my mummy and i'm forking out my own money, but both my parents add together sponsoring me $1000. I, myself gonna dig out all my savings which is $2000 to get that laptop. I hope its a good buy if not my life in year 3 gonna be terrible and i think its really gonna be so vegetable after buying. Know why? cause i'm broke. Super Duper Broke. This is the first time ever i say so, i never say about being broke, just not enough money to spend. Now i'm indeed broke, so i have a plan for myself.

The deniise's diet & saving plan:
Everyweek i will get $30 allowance, this is how i gonna save and i hope i can make it.
$12 - monday dance
$12 - saturday dance
but if i never go for this dance, i can save up e $24 or get something nice to eat =)
so i'm left with $6 to spend for 5 days in school
means 50 cents each day and i'll still have $3.50 to save every week.
1 month i can save $14, to save up to $2000 i need about 142 months?
seems abit too long and ridiculous..haha..
If in between i got win any competition or whatever so, it won't take me that long?? i hope so..hehe..moreover, it ain't everyweek i'm going for dance, so i can save more for some weeks.

All i need to do now is not to be tempted to any movies or great feast. However, those who've booked me for celebration before i decided on buying my laptop, i won't miss it. Eg. July 4 - Balcony =)
I plan to get food from home to school, if nothing to bring, i'll bring fruits and if no fruits, i'll buy fruits from school which is 50 cents for 1 honey dew =)
As for monday if i'm going for dance, i'll spend 50 cents more on another fruit. So maybe that week will be saving $3.
Plus, everyweek got exercise and all i think & hope my weight will drop like crazy? and i can reach my aim..hehe..

House dance today was great, ain't as tiring as the first lesson.

visited en's house ytd. think down to rina house tml. anymore? i'm getting so nervous. i haven't draw anything for speaker and IP. i'm slacking and im so dead. tml must be a fruitful day. i hope so.

all the best to me
gdnights ^^

Yesterday afternoon, there's a shu uemera make up demonstration in SDN. They came down to inspire us for the shu uemera competition. They need a model and i got sabo-ed to be sitted on e high chair. The make up is a spring creation, but it's not finished cause got no time and all. Thus, i look like this in e below pictures. But they gave me a cleansing oil to wash away the make up =)



After washing up in the toilet with the help of lifen, i went back home, ate dinner and went to the PC show with my mummy. Did market research for the laptops, brought them to school today to ask for classmates opinions..hehe..but i still don't know which to settle down on yet, gotta go home to ask my mummy =)

okiez, so basically, i din do any work today again! I'm feeling so guilty, but it's okie, i'm going to en's hse today for a home visit. I need more homes!! ^^

It's yet another slacking day!

I ain't feeling that well since yesterday. My heart is just so painful, is the real heart-pain, not the heart-break kinda pain k..hehe..

Yesterday went home and slept, then wake up for dinner(steamboating again), movie time - what happen in vegas. I know i'm slow but at least i watched =p

The sleepiness i felt is unexplainable. I sleep early, having about 6/7 hrs of sleep, yet i felt like i hven been sleeping for days. I don't know what happen to my body system.

I still can't adapt to school life yet. I can't do work at home which i don't need to do anything after work during IAP. Moreover, in school is also slacking still because for me now is research period and i haven't found homes to visit yet except for 2 confirms that i can go - reina & sze en. Anymore for me?? I need as many as possible, at least 10.

Probably going to IT Fair to do some research on laptops, still pending on what lappy to buy.

countdown:
XMI - 5 more days to come out with concepts
P6 - I'm left with about 3 week to come out with my concept, following week 9 july must be ready and 10 july mid-crit.
IP - Concepts should be by this week which is like tml?? =p

lunch at 1pm.
denise is super bored!
denise is hungry!
>.<

super duper bored!
My whole front area is like empty, left with me conquering the whole area and im feeling so sleepy!

My mind ain't working. I'm finding people to let me go to their home to do some research for my project. Anyone allow me to do so? I need to visit as many as possible, maybe the min 10 & max 20. Pls tag here, email or sms me. thks =)

It's week two now and i'm left with 4 weeks to my mid-crit for P6.
As for XMI, it's the first week of the project. So at week 2, 18/6 gonna show background research and findings, material use and concepts for each catergory.
Then, for the industrial project, by this week i gonna come out with 3 concepts to show garry & i haven't start yet!

Anyway, ytd attended xuehui's hiphop class. All i can say is, more practice.

My whole morning is gone just like that - surfing nets, blogs, etc. This shows that i'm practically slacking away. Moreover, the studio seems so empty until now, everyone is like MIA + alot din even turn up. That shows how free we are being in year 3. It's all about self-discipline, just have to make sure that we did consult our supervisors with work done and able to meet up to the project deadlines.

Anyway, i'm planning to buy a new laptop and it is really a must buy for me. My lappy is really dying on me. It restarts automatically when i open up the internet window, haven't even start viewing anything. If last sem i din get the INDO-virus, i think this wouldn't happen. So anyone can recommend me what lappy i should buy? It must be able to install Rhino, photoshop & illustrator. This three software is super important to me to do my projects..hehe.. Maybe mac? acer? fujitsu?

Let's blog about my weekends.
Just a very brief one =)

Saturday, 7 june was Seth's birthday.
Had a celebration for him at Fish & Co. Wheelock's Place.
Here's a video done by li ping
Enjoy



Sunday, 8 june was TBG Concert.
Great dance by Great people.
After that, dinner/supper at bedok market place.
FULL!
HSH at about 1am.

okiez.
time now is 11.15am
meiling, sihui & brenz are back from their morning exercise.
going for my brunch now.
TATA ^^

HELLO Friends.
Welcome to my new world of thoughts. =)
I should start a new blog, reason is because my old blog is giving me alot of problems. It seems like there is some spam going on? Anyway, it's good to start new. But I'll still keep the old blog because i don't know how to transfer the archive to my new blog. Does anyone knows how? Those are the history of my life & i want to keep them.

old blog: lemonade-lime.blogspot.com
new blog: lemonadenise.blogspot.com

Anyway, school was fine today. Mac Breakfast again, which can last me until i go home for my dinner. =p
Briefing on XMI-ODM competition project. It's quite stressful somehow and i decided to do it in group with jeremy & wen xuan.

I was suppose to meet shaun & yong hwee after school, but last min got a call for a family dinner. So, i fly kite. hehe.
sorry* will meet up some day soon.

My young cousin was so funny. He was like only 5 yrs old, you wouldn't expect him to say those things.
This is what happens:
Eunice was about to go orchard, then she wore a shirt that's fitting which shows her nice body. When he saw her, he goes "sexy lady". haha..
would you expect a 5 yr old to say this kind of things?
and he also said he wanted to go orchard with her.
can't stop laughing thinking about it.

We had dinner at Bedok.
nice ^^

i had a fun day, hope everyone does too.

last friday, 30 may 08
we celebrated Eunice bdae
as well as mss gathering
fun and enjoyable day
hope more of the gatherings will come




today, 04 june 08
presentation in the morning on our internship
lunch after that at mac
slack area in studio and off i go
back home waited for candice to come back frm work
off to aunt's place for her lil bdae celebration

i'm sorry girls i can't make it to meet u al today
apologize*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY aunt,'di kim'
had dinner at Newton Circus
16 of us were there
filling dinner & back home

wanna see hows my hair now??
see the below picture =p



since school started
i've been feeling tired easily
taking bus home i surely fall aslp
and first day of school,
i even missed my stop.
probably i'm still not used to the timing??
and i'm getting sick
sneeze sneeze sneeze
bless me
=)

anyway,
since school starts till now i have not touch my projects
and now i have 3 projects on hand
i think i must start tml
moreover my supervisor is so high rank..
how can i be such a slacker??
i'll die..hehe..
1 project - 12 weeks
2 projects - 8 weeks
now week 1 is almost over
i must be discipline!
jia you!!

what a day i had on sunday
a wrong decision that made many ppl busy for me
don't ever go into an unfamiliar salon
check the person before going in too
if not will end up like me
>.<

thks to my aunt & rina
of coz that 2nd salon that i went that guy - Alan
for OT'in to help me revive my stupidiest hair ever
=)

first day of school today
i know my hair is funny
but ok lar..
still can see lar
my place was not too bad
the RED area
though its like at e window
at least got fun neighbours
but he din come today!
jarett =p

below is my table
cleaned
will add more things as times goes by
^^



i fell aslp in the bus on the way home
and i miss my stop
lucky is just 1 stop

i can't stop sneezing
don't know iszit due to the school air-con or the dust
but i know i'm sick now
gotta slp erly for tml
my supervisor will only be back on wed
and presentation on wed
i duno how to present lar
>.<


I HATE MY NOSE!

will blog about the bbq n all other day
i'm super tired
nights*